wish I could be a woman too Just last week I received a one-line e-mail, no subject, from an AOL account. It simply said, “wish i could be a woman too” This e-mail had an immediate impact and has followed me for days. For many reasons, old and new, I empathize with this person. Most of us can, because we’ve been there and this is or was us. There came that moment for us when it all became too painful, too bewildering and too consuming that we all had to say or type or write the words or even scream them, “We are not the people we appear and we are prisoners in our own bodies and our hearts and souls are in pain”.
Loneliness There are few soul pains as cruel as not wanting to be the gender you are, hating the body you see in the mirror and being unable or afraid to tell anyone. The added sadness that you have lived with this secret for a year or decades. The agony of seeing others who have successfully made the transition while you must hide your true self. We’ve all been there. We all reached that point where we had to tell someone. We could no longer contain it and had to say, “wish i could be a woman too”
I am so happy she reached out I am so glad this person wrote to me. I responded, but have yet to hear back, and I may never, but for a brief moment, this person, one of our sisters, reached out and got a reply. Maybe this was enough and she will go about her life. Maybe it is the start of her liberation and transition. Everyone’s transition is different and perhaps hers is just coming out to herself and knowing who she really is inside. Wherever her journey takes her, I wish her well.
Please reach out, we’re here We need to remember when we had our, “wish i could be a woman too” moment. This goes for ALL our sisters and brothers. We also should rejoice, remember and thank those to whom we reached out. At our low moments, we found someone to connect with. I encourage all those out there, those who are looking to connect or those who are willing to speak with someone just finding their way, reach out. Please find each other. There are many places out there where you can connect with someone, but if you are here and need to connect with someone, I’m available. E-mail Cate.OMalley@MatureTransgender.com, I would love to hear from you.